Happy Freedomversary to Me!
Six years ago today, I walked away from my last office job. And I don’t regret that transition one bit.
When I took that job fifteen months earlier — managing a staff of 27 librarians in seven offices, supporting a 12-office law firm — I thought it was perfect for me. The position was a new one for the firm; the library had never been managed by a professional librarian before. I came from a number of firms where the library was greatly respected as a team player on major projects, and I looked forward to creating the same powerhouse for my new employer.
Alas, the job didn’t shape up in reality the way it had in my mind. I ended up traveling a lot — up to two weeks a month — at a time when I was settling in to happy married life at home. My superiors and I had very different ideas about the role of a library, and the role of management in general. Mergers reared their ugly heads, along with reductions in force, with seismic shifts in functioning.
I still understood how to create the library I wanted, one that would please my superiors and the lawyers at the firm. I drew up a plan to achieve that — a five-year plan, with specific goals along the way.
But then I realized I didn’t want to make that five-year investment.
I realized I needed to look for a new job. I returned home from a particularly grueling trip, and I announced that I was going to start my job search the following day. My husband said, “Why don’t you try writing full time?”
And so I did.
There are days that I miss the steady certainty of a paycheck deposited into my bank, no matter what projects have been completed in the past several weeks. There are days that I wonder how my five-year plan would have worked, what I would have accomplished. And I miss the people — my staff — who were excellent librarians, one and all.
But I don’t regret my decision, ever. I don’t regret creating the Diamond Brides. Or the Darkbeast books (as Morgan Keyes). Or new Jane Madison books.Pretty much, I don’t regret anything.So Happy Freedomversary to me. And happy weekend to all of you!